Estimated reading time: 5 mins (If you are able to understand, of course)
When five channels are playing simultneously on the same radio, it’s better to turn the volume down!
OK! So, I am writing again, this time not for making dollars, but to flush out the lava, boiling in my mind. Your attention is stuck on dollars, right? Oo! you greedy people!
Heard somewhere, we all are running, there are trillions of stories running parallelly around us and we do not have a fucking idea about it, we all are racing, chasing something, maybe that is why we are called the human race.
But for what? To earn money? Well, those who are earning great, already know, and those who are not, will come to know, money buys us resources to be satisfied, it never gives happiness. Unless it buys you a Ferrari, Ah! a brand new black matte Ferrari 488, that is happiness for sure!
Actually, we all are running just to find a connection in this profoundly connected, yet disconnected world, a corner to yell out all our random shit, we all have strange thoughts running in our mind all day, maybe that is why all pretty girls end up with ugly guys, they just lend their ears for random thoughts, that’s all we need. Someone to hear our bizarre thoughts and say ” Oh wow! baby, you are so creative.”
The same doesn’t work for guys, because they are a pervert and polygamous by manufacturing only. Hence, they all think of one thing every time, either how to? with whom? or when would be next time? Unless they had it just a few minutes back, then they want to sleep, of course. I hope you get it. (Above statement is based on science and history, not my personal, My personal thoughts are spiritual and pure, like Ammm… Ever heard of Shri Ram in Ramayan?).
Now here I am an ugly guy, with a mind full of random boggling shit!
Oh Boi! you have no idea!
It is always jumping and pumping thoughts around. who? my mind, who else? Is there any pretty girl lending her ear? of course not, they are all occupied with ears of ugly boys like me. Hahahaha!
Well, what an enigma, a few minutes later my mind was full of thoughts overwhelming me with what not. and now it’s like should I say this or not, or should I completely ditch this idea and say that.
We are not robbed of creativity or words, we are just afraid to say it all because it sounds weird, just like you are finding this article right now, with no idea what I am trying to say, trust me, even I don’t have a fucking idea.
The beauty is you don’t even know, are you happy or sad, if you are sad, trust me you are lucky, because you at least know, you are grieving, and your mind will do some chemical magic and show you a way to get out of this sorrow, but what if you have no idea, and you are just perplexed.
Should you laugh or cry, oh! your life is on fire, are you able to figure out? that it is really on fire, maximum of the time you are not. You are confused, you need closure, we all need closure about everything.
In anticipation lies our biggest fear. I don’t want to be anticipating all my life, I want it to be smooth. Anyone? please, who thinks his/her thoughts are smooth as silk, please contact me, and if it’s not, then, Hey! welcome to my gang, a band of confusing and clueless people, who don’t know what the hell is going on.
I read somewhere that you are the master of your destiny, that the god if he really is, don’t have enough time to take care of everything which is happening with trillions of people around the world, excluding the insects, animals, fish etc. Everyone is equal for god, right? Which left us, for ourselves to decide what the hell gonna happen with us.
Now I am thinking of my friends, who, when they will get to know that I wrote such a bizarre article will say ” I know he is a fool, knew it from a long time”. Well, yeah, I am crazy, or maybe I am just reflecting what everybody else don’t wanna say, simply because we are not able to find that person, to say these random things.
Now I am thoughtless, I wonder why I won’t be in this situation when I will be trying to sleep, the moment I close my eyes, all my crushes, all my fear, and everything else have to make a grand entry and entertain me for next few hours, until I start scolding myself, bro sleep!
Well, if you read it just like that, you can surely find me insane, but if you introspect or be just a bit neurotic, you will find, fuck, this is what goes on in me too, every fucking day, and night. Of course, your topics are different, but all of them haunt you like this, randomly, all coming together, each seeking your absolute attention.
No one is sane, no one, and we hate it, we hate trying to be someone we are not, all the time, because surely we do not want to piss people, some people will say, do not care what others think of you, just be you, fuck you man, my crush just stopped talking to me, because I was quoting something she can’t relate to at all,
You see, all these totally random thoughts go through a mind of a silent person, and on the top of it, if someone comes and ask, what are you thinking, why are you so silent? you will be like … what? Dude! I am everything but silent.
Thanks for reading this till now, if you are reading it. I just wanna ask one question, how it feels like when your thoughts are straightened, the way you want them to be. Anyone, who is not confused and clueless about life, please mock me and more than that teach me harmony.
And, please don’t say do yoga, that is too boring, I can’t sit at one place for hours, and just breathe, I know it must be great for mind and body, but I got a short life, and I do not want to bore myself. I am so sorry Yoga people, I love you, especially yoga pants, but it’s just, I don’t know…
Now I am feeling like, boy you have already written enough shit to embarrass yourself for rest of your life, and I am just saying to myself that, this is how random stuff jump around in the mind of each and everyone, who is reading this, some will just realize and smile, while others will be ignorant and say dude are you intoxicated right now?
Truth is I don’t know, but I want to know
Time to stop writing, I guess!
Above article is a 5min food for thought, of a silent person. Go and ask them, what is going on in there mind, if they deny insist them, you will love their random shit!
~R
(Extravagantly vocal silent guy)
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